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I felt super-motivated to start the new year. We’re two weeks in already and everything’s gone quiet on my blog. Ok not really but I always feel that way when I don’t post for a couple of weeks. This happened last year too, what gives?

Even though it’s been kind of quiet I am working on new stuff. Mostly, I’m trying to get ready for Breyerwest because HEYYY six months has magically turned into two-ish! WHAT HAPPENED. This doesn’t really surprise me BUT STILL.

(I blame everything on my job)

I have been participating in a January photo challenge on Facebook/Instagram, which has been fun and given me something to post when there hasn’t been anything else ready to share yet.

Aside from that, I’ve been re-working ribbon rosettes. These were inspired by NAN and Breyerfest:

My desk is a ribbon factory at the moment…

I really want to remake a full set like this, just need to make time!

A secret project got put together…

As well as some other things…

Magical prints… and plaid for the Muggles 😛

I got all giddy over Breyer’s website update the other day:

I will not stop being excited over this #sorrynotsorry

And Leah (who is awesome) of Shoestring Stable surprised me with a NIB Justify, which was super sweet and very generous of her. Thanks again, Leah!

Squee!

Breyerwest really is my main focus right now, (I’m not quite in panic mode but almost) so things will probably continue to be quiet around here. We’ll see!

Is that it? I think that’s it. Back to work.

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At the end of every December I set myself goals or resolutions to stick to throughout the new year. This doesn’t always go according to plan, and 2018 was a perfect example.

In 2018, my goals were the following:

  • Focus more on my Etsy shop
  • Complete at least one tack project a month
  • Keep blogging

Out of the three, keeping up with blogging was the only one I managed to stick to.

I didn’t keep up with “one tack piece per month,” but I still made a lot of other things, mostly blankets. This year was The Year of the Blankets… I think I made around 40?

The tack pieces I did make I ended up really happy with.

Creating for Breyer was a distraction from that goal, but it was also a dream come true so I’m not complaining!

And “Focus on the Etsy shop” definitely didn’t go according to plan. 😅

With 2019 quickly approaching, I’ve been wondering about making new goals. Blog and make tack? That’s going to happen anyway, as they go hand in hand nowadays. Limit new herd members or sell to make space? 🐴 Um no… (I’m out of space but I’m ignoring it for the time being)

To be honest I don’t really want to make any specific hobby goals this year. What I do have in mind is on a more personal level… I need to work on being kinder to myself, to stop overthinking, second guessing and worrying about things that don’t need to be worried about. And, hopefully, keep telling those “you aren’t (fill in the blank) enough” lies to shut. up.

All easier said than done of course.

I do want to pause and say thank you to everyone who has been so kind, supportive and encouraging. The hobby and the community was such a huge, positive force in my life this year. ❤️

I’m really looking forward to 2019. I’ll be going to BreyerWest in March, and I finally caved and joined the Premier Club (Eberl, Scott and Vingerling? YES PLEASE) so there’s already a bunch of fun stuff to look forward to. My blog’s gotten an upgrade with it’s own domain – it only took me a decade! But it’s worth it. (on the plus side, it got rid of all the ads! I didn’t realize how obnoxious they were as they never showed up when I was logged in to WordPress…)

I have high hopes for the new year. 2019, I’m ready for you!

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A few months ago I shut down my Etsy shop pretty much out of the blue. Truthfully, something came up which required my full attention, so dealing with my shop in addition to that would have caused a lot of stress.

To be honest, I was already feeling that stress before shutting it down. Sometime during the winter season I hit a wall, especially when it came to sales/orders. It got to the point where they were beginning to cause physical anxiety, which is bizarre because that’s never really happened before. I feel bad for even mentioning that. I am, and have always been, incredibly grateful for the interest in my work. ❤

Anyway, having an excuse to close it for a while instead of hemming and hawing and stressing even longer turned out to be a really good thing.

There were a number of different reasons behind the way I was feeling in general – it wasn't just hobby/sales/etc related stuff. I haven't been open about it here, instead trying to keep an upbeat or neutral tone in my posts. (Should I be? Or is it too much? I never know. :/)

Today, I'm still not 100% but I'm much, much better. It's normal for me to go through periods of depression and anxiety. This time was a bit different though. Usually being creative and focusing on my hobbies is a way to cope. It's extremely discouraging when it's contributing to it instead. 😦

Taking a break helped. I got some pieces done that I've been wanting to make, but never had time for. I even managed to take a few days off of work, which hasn't happened in a couple years, and that helped TONS too.
I went to the bison range to look for animals and was not disappointed…

National Bison Range - Bison

National Bison Range - Pronghorn Antelope

National Bison Range - Turtle Rock

National Bison Range - Bison

And I went up to Glacier National Park.

Glacier - Lake McDonald

Glacier - Lake McDonald

I have every intention of going back to both. (is there any interest in those kinds of posts? I know it’s my blog and I can post whatever I want but…?)
It kind of hit me just how fortunate I am to live in such a beautiful place, and I really don’t want to take it for granted. I forgive you, Montana, for the 6 months of winter. Please don’t burn to the ground again this summer, k?

Montana has finally decided that’s it’s Spring/Summer now, so everything is GREEN and it’s WARM and my mood has lifted considerably. Work’s better. I don’t feel quite as sad. I’ve been getting back in church nearly every weekend and that’s helping too.

Soooo… now what?

I’m not DONE with my Etsy shop. I have slowly been working on sales pieces, and managed to complete a batch of western pads which I’ve listed today:

I like making sales pieces, and I think that’s because there’s freedom in making them.

But I have also decided that I won’t be making things to order, or take on any custom orders for the time being. There’s a certain amount of fear behind that, and I am afraid that I’m going to disappoint or let people down. But the very idea of taking on any more is bringing that anxiety up again, and until I get that sorted -if I can get it sorted- I figure it’s best to put orders on the back burner for now. I’ve put a lot of pressure on myself in regards to my shop… and there’s this other fear that if I can’t get x, y & z done by such and such time, or if I can’t dedicate so much time every day to work on stuff that I know people have been waiting for, I’ll be a total FAILURE. I know (I hope?) it’s all a lie but it’s still there bothering me.

I don’t know what I’m trying to say anymore, but for the last few weeks I’ve felt like I needed to say something. Also… if there are any artists/tack-makers/creatives that can relate, please leave a comment… I’ve allowed anonymous comments again. They were closed because of trolls. 😛

It seems like creativity and depression often go hand in hand and I’m not sure why that is. Or maybe I’m just weird, haha.

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